college or relationship

please don't tell me that i have to choose. my mom told me yesterday that she would help pay for college if i wanted to go. so now i am planning to go next spring. puck doesn't want to stay in kc he wants to go and do truck driving like we had planned. he told me that he doesn't want to wait around here another 4 years. fuck. fuck. fuck. what do i fucking do. what do i do. get educated or stay with a boy. boyfriends come and go and i don't want men holding me back from my dreams. and he doesn't want to break up with me.. what the fuck am i doing..