yaoi is destroying my brain

dear god i am obessed with yaoi. and in such a way that it's odd to describe. sure there is the *squee* two very hot men fucking :D ^_^ but then there is the i would like to be one of those hot men fucking either of the hot men in question. Let's see if i can list all of my current yaoi pairing obessions: Batman (bale) x Joker (ledger), 2D x Murdoc, Connor x Stephen (Primeval), Vin Disel x bale, ledger, or connor, um trying to remember others. but can't at the moment. i just know that i seriously want to watch these men fuck and then be a man and fuck them. my brain is like rotten i think. i just can't help it right now... i guess. mmm tasty man sex... sweet jesus *grabs cleaning supplies and attempts to cleanse my brain* damn it not working :( oh well just more yaoi for me. that is another thing i am a yaoi picture collector... i don't like to admit it but i love collecting really nicely or just decently drawn yaoi. i also love drawing yaoi as well :D gah... it's raining (gay) men... hell to the yeah ^_^