Puck.
What can more can I say?
What can't be said?

It's all a crazy circus over here. Working hard and little play time. I'm counting the days and crossing my fingers. I feel so silly. I know I've been silly over boys before so it's really nothing new. I fear I'm dreaming up this interaction. That it's purely my invention. That in the morning there will be nothing more and nothing less then it was before. the days are taking too long to end these days. Things have changed for the best. I can feel it. How do I explain all the things I feel about him. All the things that have grown. He's my best friend, confidant, guy-I've-had-a-thing-for-going-on-2-years, and generally speaking my right hand man. It stuns me we've only known one another two years. I've never been close to guys. (My ex is an exception. I got close to him. And I was badly burned.) I'm absolutely silly about him. It's really hard to explain to him or to this internet niche for my thoughts how my thoughts of him have changed. It's shifted from a silly little internet crush to something truly wonderful. I can't help but feel as though the very air is touched with this warmth I didn't notice before. He has always been able to pull me out of any funk. I have no clue how he's always done it. His visit is going to be a turning point for sure. there already has been turning points lately. Not sure if he'll admit to them. How could anyone want anything more then him? Expect anything less? He's a darling, my angel, and makes me into a damn fool. But I love him with every fiber of my being. Which isn't creepy. It just is. I'm tired. I should be getting up early tomorrow so. I'll leave this as is