life is a nightmare, life is a dream
life is never what i want it to seem
days become longer till they are light-filled torture
eyes cry out from the burning
body shattered by the emptiness surrounding
i'm short of stable; lay down ashamed
will i ever find that smile i had months ago

he's need to make me happy is worrying me. i love him dearly but right now i can't be happy. i try for him. it's hard to break when you are already broken. hard to fall to pieces when your already shattered.

The first cut is the deepest Sheryl Crow - I would have given you all of my heart but there's someone who's torn it apart and she's taking almost all that I've got but if you want, I'll try to love again baby I'll try to love again but I know The first cut is the deepest, baby I know The first cut is the deepest 'cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed when it comes to lovin' me she's worst but when it comes to being loved she's first that's how I know The first cut is the deepest, baby I know The first cut is the deepest I still want you by my side just to help me dry the tears that I've cried cause I'm sure gonna give you a try and if you want, I'll try to love again but baby, I'll try to love again, but I know The first cut is the deepest, baby I know The first cut is the deepest 'Cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed when it comes to lovin' me she's worst but when it comes to being loved she's first that's how I know The first cut is the deepest, baby I know The first cut is the deepest