damn it anyway. I got up early to talk to him and he isn't on. I should have just slept in instead of being retarded and getting up before my body was ready. but there are sacrifices to be made if i am going to be able to keep up with my boy. Plus being up early gives me the bitter comebacks needed when dealing with that asshole Christophe on GT. I can't fucking take him. He's so ass backwards. I wonder if there is a way that most- if not all of the peoples on gt could sign a petition to get rid of his stanky ass. The problem with the gene pool is that there's no lifeguard. And lord knows his sperm and egg donor erm i mean mom and dad needed a lifeguard. I have no idea what the reason god has from him existing. anyway........

i miss him!!!!!
God damn it.

I'm broke and feeling likt i'm being slowly slowly swallowed whole. I'm panicking about getting the money to both of the apartments on time... I'm feeling even more of a failure then usual. I know he tries his best to remind me i'm not a failure. i can't help but crying and hating myself right now.

But he's broken me down. I have finally accepted his offer to pay for the new apartment. I'm feeling so vulnerable. he's my second half. we can go from serious to casual with an ease. I know this is my life- him. I can't live without him. He completes me so sweetly