finally home... i've regrouped and have thought about my last post....
i hope he gets on...
earlier he was out with his ex mother's day shopping.... but he said he'd be on....

i'm laying here feeling so vulnerable and broken.... how can i let myself be so worn for all this silliness. i broke down and talked to jessie. i sobbed and rambled the entire 30 min ride home and when i got home we stood inside the apartment and i sobbed and rambled for 10/15 more min....

who's clever idea was it to schedule to incredibly stressful events within two/three days of each other???

that's right! i'm the jenious that decided that!

well.... i'm done pouting about it....

i'll bend over and take this all up the ass and smile the entire time about it!
coz that's what ladies do! they don't complain or needlessly whine! NO! they grin and bear it!

kk.... i'm maniac right now.... but i'll be even keel and Desperate Housewives perky come Wednesday....

kk...
i'll wait up for him...
hope he gets on if not i'll be sad....
but hey! that's me! pathetic!