21.6.10

somethings i should've said long ago

I never had a chance to say thank you. Thank you for showing me who you really are. If by now you still don’t realize how selfish, egocentric, and disrespectful you’ve been, telling you that would be futile. Your short sightedness and your poor judgment have finally caught up to you. Of course, your ego would never allow yourself to admit to any wrongdoing.
Your weakness in character, lack of integrity, stubbornness, and selfishness disgust me. You were right. I deserve better. You were really just a selfish little child inside. All your little flings you had (attempted to have) (probably STILL HAVE) behind her back. I almost feel bad for the tubby psycho.
I also wanted some closure between us. I am sure now that I don’t want us to EVER get back together. It changed me in ways I haven't fully grasped yet. If you would have had even one testicle to your name you wouldn't have had wifey to tell me to leave you
alone... awwww poor baby!!! The day I left - remember the kiss you forced on me - you still wanted me so I guess it came as a total shock that you - such a MATURE and WISENED old man - would use his wife to send a go away text from the poor poor over bothered granpa.
I guess I kept texting you because I wanted to know that you’ve have went back to suckling off your blissfully willfully violently ignorant host. Did you tell her yet that you are an atheist? Or was that just a little trick you picked up so that you could finger fuck and eat me in the backseat of my car while she was working not but a few yards away? All that feigned guilt and angst! Bravo! Bravo!! My hat is off to you man! Such acting would be oscar worthy!
It is true. When we were together, you were all that I thought about. You were all that I cared about. I may have a hard time expressing my love but you melted my heart. Somehow you did. What a sorry guilable sap I was! You just wanted to fuck around on the wife and manipulate me so that you could get whatever pussy you could and not have to actually be a human being. You never had even a thought of getting a divorce or being with me. Pathetic shell of a "man".
You said when times would get tough, you would be there for me and not take advantage of my generosity. But you did. You took advantage. All the psycho cyber snooping will never assist you in being able to understand how I feel and am. I wish you could read my thoughts and my heart. But you can’t. You never have.
You are a spineless, gutless, brainless psycho. I don't miss you. I don't miss the mental anguish you put me through. I doubt you had any real "love" for me. Such a don juan line! I feel bad for the next dumb bimbo who falls for your angsty confessions of secret long term love. Your "I'm so in love that I'm fall apart because of you" bullshit.


Fuck you, fuck your feeble bullshit, and fuck your mutilated stunted version of romance and love.


i hope you get back to your co-dependancy of your dumb hyper manipulated cow with little effort.

Try and pick somebody dumber and more needy next time!


good luck to you and the rest of your miserable shriveled existance.





ps- you always smelled like a porto john with cologne dumped ontop.

pps- i went out with another person the same time as you the last 2 months of our "relationship" because i was SICK OF YOUR FUCKING SHIT!!!!! yeah she was the best lay i've ever had. She didn't have this BULLSHIT psycho nonsense attached to her like you do.


once people get to know you they realize that you aren't charming, funny or interesting

you're a bitter sociopathic cripple with a huge madonna/whore complex.